Octopussy.
OptimismAnyhow. I had a super long journal entry typed out with me moping a few days ago, then another one, now this one. Basically, me and Tabitha broke up, if you didn't know yet. I think things are finally settled now; I don't want to go into details, but I... kinda learned something I damn well should have known by now: We're too young to be in any serious relationship. We're too naive, too immature, too mentally and emotionally unstable. And that's where I screwed up. Basically, I fell for the same trap I told my friends to be wary of.
So... now that my mind's pretty much cleared up now, I feel a lot happier. ^_^
EDIT: I think I'm finally getting over the breakup. While the feelings still come and go, I... think I can finally handle it.
Just thought I'd let you know.
Devious Comments
).were things going smoothly with her though?
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hello ! burritos...
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"a cup of gay everyday---\"project-helios
"keeps the straight people away!\"AwesomeNerd
Don't mope~ Moping is no fun.
Find enjoyment in something~ watch Gurren Lagann, and Kamina will make everything better~
on a more serious note: I am sorry about you and Tabitha, and I'm sad I didn't get to know her more.
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wanna see something cute~?
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Long story short: Due to my lack of self-confidence, I ultimately screwed everything up. I mean... I had a fucking panic attack over the phone; the story goes tons deeper, but I don't want to go into detail, on behalf of Tabitha's privacy. I already betrayed her enough as it is... and it's gonna take me a while to forgive myself, even though she forgave me.
The story is a lot deeper. Trust me; I pretty much tried to kill myself after the breakup. That's how emotionally attached to her I was.
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Everything will be all right. <3
but my problems mentally and emotionally have got me into so much shit because of myself trying to prevent harm to the person that knows me the best and i keep on hurting myself and others whether i open up or not and i hate myself...i ultimately screwed up and i am just so tired and don't know how to make it up...and explain how why i did the confused,screwed up thingz that i did and express how sorry i am...
things are so complex that i can't even understand some things but thatz just what life is...complex.i just want to fix things to the way they once were.
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hello ! burritos...
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"a cup of gay everyday---\"project-helios
"keeps the straight people away!\"AwesomeNerd
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hello ! burritos...
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"a cup of gay everyday---\"project-helios
"keeps the straight people away!\"AwesomeNerd
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Everything will be all right. <3
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hello ! burritos...
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"a cup of gay everyday---\"project-helios
"keeps the straight people away!\"AwesomeNerd
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