HEY. LOOK WHO'S BACK FOR, LIKE, 5 MINUTES. :3


Uh... I'm actually using one of the computers at Woods. Why am I at Woods, you ask?

I have to help the janitors for my community service. ;_;

I'm sure you all know by know, though. So I won't waste time explaining everything.

EDIT: I ALMOST forgot to tell you guys.

So, uh. A few days back, I had to replace the toilet paper in the bathrooms. No big deal, right? I replaced the paper in the boys bathroom first, then in the girls bathroom. WHILE I was in the process of opening the toilet paper thingamajig... in come a group full of 8'th grade girls.
...My heart was racing. Literally. So, like, I closed the stall, and pretended to be using the restroom. Then I remembered I had hairy legs and all.
*Knock knock*
I was freaking out.
*Knock knock*
I didn't know what to do.

And then one of the girls looked under the door and saw me.

...Ye goshes, I don't think I've ever been so embarrassed in my life.

I spent the rest of the day hiding from them. Literally.

Besides that, I got to see what a girls restroom looks like! ^.^ Pretty much the same, other than personal hygeine stuff that's not in a guys restroom. *Gets shot* I'll... stop talking about bathrooms now.

...But seriously. That day was utter hell. ;_; I think I've been, like, emotionally scarred for life.

Oh, did I mention they had freakin' BLOGS on the stall walls? Stuff like:
"Lol that guys hot"
"i know! too bad i dont get 2 see him!"
"no hes gay"
"lol i know im tired of woods"
"me too"
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I... honestly don't know what to say. XD Honestly, nothing at all has been going on over the summer break. I'm working at Woods, yeah, but... other than that, my days are all the same: Sleep, eat, play games.

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Well... on to a rather serious note now.
Over the summer, I've been really thinking hard about whether or not to go back to Central or stay at North. There's pro's and cons to each of them, really. And... it pains me to say this, but.
I'm 85-90% sure I want to go back to North.
I... honestly don't know how well you guys will take this. I dunno if you'll be sad, upset, etc. However, I've weighed down the pros and cons of each.
If I go back to Central... I'll be able to see you guys again on a daily basis. However, as much as I tell you guys that I can deal with the inevitable teasing, I... can't. I keep telling myself that I could, but... I couldn't.
However... if I go to Central, I'll probably never be able to see the few friends I've made over at North again.
If I go to North... that's another thing alltogether.
No one knows what I did. No one teases me about what I did, since they don't know. People at North are accepting of me, too. It's not clique-y, either, unlike Central. People over at North... kind of accept me for who I am. Weird, wacky, quiet, calm... even emotional at times.
I mean, I'll still be able to see you guys again if I go to North. I mean, there's Youth Group. There's church. There's random get-togethers, or "shindigs", as me and Courtney like to put it. So... you guys won't be out of my life. I'll still be able to see you guys on a slightly daily basis, kinda.
Please... don't be sad or upset. I thought about this all summer, and this is the decision I've come up with. I may not be in Central's hallways, but I'll still be able to see you guys on at least a weekly basis.

But, I have all summer to rethink my decision. Thoughts come and go. Who knows; I may return to Central... or stay at North. Right now, I'm leaning towards North, but... I dunno.
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And on to a strange note.

I've... been really missing someone as of late.

I mean, I miss you all, don't get me wrong, but... there's a person in particular who... honestly, doesn't want to leave my mind.

I dunno if it's the onset of a crush or what, but... truly, I can't stop thinking about her. I miss her. I haven't seen her for so long... it's getting almost unbearable. It's not Courtney, Brittany, Hannah, Danny, Sarah, or any of those people, before you ask. EDIT: Wow, I worded that completely wrong. Yeah, I miss you guys, but... this person has been on my mind constantly. It's a "different" kind of missing, I could say. More a sort of longing.

She... was one of the few people who was nice to me right off the bat. I could trust her. She... was - or IS - the only true friend I have over at North.

...Ugh, I hope I don't creep her out by saying that if she was to ever read that.

Then again, it probably isn't a crush. Like most times, it isn't. I just miss them severely. Call it withdrawal, if you may. I'm... just not sure at the moment which it may be.

But really, is it worth it? I mean, you may all say a girl would be lucky to have me or whatever, but... it seems that's not the case. Take Angie, for example. I... I ruined her for a while. Then there's Hannah. I dunno what I did, but even if we're, like, the best of friends now... I screwed up somewhere along the line. It seems that no matter how hard I try... nothing ever really works out. No one likes me in that way. As much as you guys may say otherwise... I see it differently.
Maybe I'm just being hopeless. Who knows. But really, there's an extremely small chance that my efforts will get me somewhere. So, really... it's not worth it.
I mean, when I see Hannah and Alex... Courtney and Nick... Danny and Cody... it makes me jealous, to be honest. Sure, I'm happy for them, but... it seems like I'm missing out on one of the best experiences of teenage life. I know what will eventually happen: we'll eventually break up. But it's better to love and lose than to never have loved at all.

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Uh... I guess this is the end of my journal entry. Until next time (which may be in a forever's time), see ya.

Over and out.

EDIT: I'm, like, getting severely anime-deprived. Like, big time.
Anyone wanna lend me a box set? *Gets shot*
Preferrably FullMetal Alchemist. *Gets shot again*
...Episodes 25-or-so through the end. *Yet again*