Like the title says.. this will very likely be the last journal entry I make for quite a while. And with this... I have quite a lot to say.

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First of all... I want to say thanks. Guys, I can't even begin to describe how happy I am that, despite what I did, you guys stuck with me. You supported me, you were with me... you forgave me. Word's cannot even begin to describe how... how happy I feel. I love you guys so much... so... much...

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On another note... who the hell am I kidding? I keep telling myself I wish things would be normal again.
Who am I kidding when I say that?
Things will never be normal again. Everyone knows the other side of me, the side I wish to get rid of. Everyone does... my friends, my family... and although I may not have to worry about court and restrictions in the future, I'll still have to deal with my family and friends knowing the other side of me.
So who am I kidding? Things will never, ever be normal again...

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I... I guess I can take one thing out of North. I've been taught one thing, at least. I'm not... really antisocial anymore.

The first few weeks were hell. Utter hell. I went through them without talking to ANYONE, sitting by no one at lunch...
After a while of that, I... really changed. I knew I wouldn't survive if I didn't do anything. So... I kind of came out of my shell, and got to know a few people.

As of right now, I... haven't made too many friends. There's Chris, Jacob, Cid, Rebekka... but other than that, I haven't made too many friends. At least, friends I can actually trust.

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I... I think I'm over the whole crush thing now. I mean, I... eventually told her. (What can I say? She kept asking until I cracked. XD) Anyhow... she doesn't think of me any more than a friend, which was expected. But although I may still have feelings for her... I'll try to ignore them. Besides, it's not like I could even stand a chance in the whole relationship game.

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I... really don't know what else to add. Rebekka, if you're reading this... I want you to know that I really wish I could have gotten a chance to know you better. You're nice, smart, uh... cute, etc. You like manga and anime, you like to write... I just wish I could have gotten a chance to get to know you better.
And Rebekka, quit being so hard on yourself. You don't suck at drawing. You don't suck at writing. Heck, the drawings you draw are... really good, actually. As in, really good. I haven't read anything that you've wrote yet, though, but... I'm sure it can't be THAT bad. So quit being so hard on yourself.

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Well... I guess I better wrap up this journal entry. My court date is tomorrow, and I'm really freaking out over it. But... I've got to get this done and over with eventually.

I love you all. You guys have made me who I am. The real me, at least. I created the fake me... and I intend to destroy it. However, you guys have made me exactly who I am. You guys... are, quite literally, my lifeline. Without you guys, I'd be empty. I... wouldn't be me. If anything, I probably wouldn't be alive today.

Guys... thanks.

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I almost forgot.

Rules for communicating with me:
-When talking on the phone, don't mention anything about Deviant Art, unless it's something small like "I read your note" or "So-and-so got an account".
-Remember that ANYTIME I call during the day, my parents are ALWAYS in the same room. It's a rule; they must be. However, if I call at around 10-ish, it's safe to talk normally.
-The Youth Group restriction may be lifted soon, so... yeah.
-I can't go anywhere, ANYWHERE without my parents coming along, too. This includes: Spending time at a friends house, going to the movies, etc.
-No internet. ;_;

What I CAN do:
-You can send me messages via XBox LIVE. My account name is Katamisan. So, uh... yeah.
-I can call you guys late at night. :B