All right. I've been wanting to get this out of me for quite some time.

I'm sick of this. Absolutely sick of this. I'm... different than most others in the way I act, converse, and in my actions. I'd expect people to observe and respect that. But... no.
Instead, they tease me, and think differently of me.
Who cares if I'm the quiet kid in the class? Who cares if I lack social skills enough to actually engage in a regular conversation? Who cares if I strike people as "weird", just because of the way I do certain actions? It sickens me, really.
Maybe I can't deal with the teasing I'll have to endure if I go back to Central. But is it any different ANYWHERE I go? No; no matter where I go, I'll still be teased and ridiculed. I'll be the joke of the classroom, no matter where I go. So is it any different?

Why is it so bad to be "different" than others? Hell, even my councelor has gotten mad at me because of how "different" I am and because of my social beliefs. But so what? I am who I am, and I don't think anything can change that.
So I read manga. So I watch anime. So I'm good at computers, and am typically shy. Does that make me emo? No; far from it. I'm thoughtful. Does that make me emo? Apparently, in most people's eyes. And it sickens me. Absolutely sickens me.

I'm sick of this. I'm sick of our society, our culture, of most of humanity in general. Most people dissapoint me. I observe who they are, hoping that they'll actually be a good person... and ultimately, I'm dissapointed. I've made very, very few friends here at North, and with the few friends I've made, only one can I actually trust and talk to normally.

Yeah, I probably couldn't take it if I go back to Central. But is it any different than North? No; I still get teased here, albeit not as harshly as I would be if I go back to Central. And besides... my two best friends go to Central. And I feel... incomplete without being in their presence.

I want to go back. I wish... I wish none of this happened...

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On a side note, I think I'll break into the Imperial Palace on Friday. (On Oblivion.) Wish me luck!